My life is crap

[sugarblush25]

Hi every body
im just having a bad time at the moment. I know wan says pain is success but im having hard tie having faith at the moment. I really im stuck you see i can see things that other people cant see. which is fine but i want a good life and if medaatation is the key. Why is it not working for me. i have the manta for sleep medatation but my mp3 turns it self off after 4 hours and the ear peace falls out of my ear. So i dont know what to do!! Any more im just useless, i am a single mum and i am a loser.

i feel like people would be better off with out me!! i dont want to be of this world any more. Reallty sucks. i have nothing more to give any more. My boy would be better of with out me.

I need gudence i dont understand why nothing works for me!!

sugar

[Animator]

The first thing I notice is how much you are bringing yourself down.

Saying that you are useless, you are a loser or such things are actually also mantras.
and you DON'T want those, right?
Captain obvious would say: Focus on the good, the bright side...
But I can understand that can be hard for you to grasp when you can not see the bright side at this moment.

The thing you should be able to see however, is the things you ARE good at!
What do you like to do?
What do you enjoy?
What makes you the person you are?
What things do your friends like about you?

You say you are a single mother,.. isn't that just something to be proud of in itself?
That means you are taking care of someone, which is beautifull! See the beauty in those simple things in life and find your way back into the light.
And although that sounds really cheesy, that light is the bright-side of life you are looking for.

[BinhDinh_Khiwarrior]

i understand how you feel. im not trying to be condescending, i have been through tough times myself. It sounds to me like you suffer from depression-because this is how i often used to think- i still have those thoughts but i try not to give them power in my life any more and as i have progressed in my own mediative skills these feelings have become less and less. Are you aware of the Micro-cosmic orbit meditation? If yes then using that as a base technique when u feel this way-like crap (and i know how much that sucks-coz it;s such an overwhelming feeling that runs right through you) try to sit down and do the micro cosmic orbit- but instead of focusing on the air try to feel around, behind, in and above your head (your whole general head area including the air above it) try to feel the crap that you are feeling is there (because it is) try to feel like a dull, dirty kinda fuzz is all around your head area and focus on that, now breath that in with the air mix it in ur dan tien and bring it up the spine (at least 9 times in a row-but try fro 18-36) and over ur head into ur dan tien. The feeling of depression is a frequency range that you are experiencing-a negative one-the micro cosmic orbit allows you to clean any energy-i have myself converted depression into happiness in a couple of minuts- the only danger here is that motivation can be lacking well you feel really bad-you must try to persevere and just keep going until you do feel better. It is very improtant to realise your own intrinsic value-meditation will help with this- we are all slices of this massive pie-and each one of us is just as important as the next- you have value even if ppl tell you otherwise or even if you tell yourself otherwise-try to remmber that...Im sure if you could asked your baby if you were valuable to them they would say "yes, of course, don't be silly mum!" but i know that it can be easy to forget this especially when ppl are mean- or there is much trouble or turbulence in your life....you are worthy....

[zcemd74]

Walk outside, look at the sky.
Listen to the wind,
Watch the birds flying,
Look at the people carrying out their daily lives,
See the world around you...

Have you every notice?
Every people... Old or young, rich or poor, black yellow or white; each one of us have a common goal...
To be Happy...
Each day, all we do is trying to struggle for our happiness and for people around us.
When we do this, we expect the outcome to be like this. When we do that we expect outcome to be like that.
When our expectations have been reached, we are satisfied. When our expectations are not reached, we are disappointed.

You having a mother's heart...
Yes sometimes it's hard,
Yes sometimes it's tiring,
For you want to give the best and delivery the best for your child.

I wrote a poem for my girlfriend, I want to share it with you...
"Life is like a Book;
Where you are its only author and alone with the pen.
As time passes, the story moves on. As for you writing the stories on those pages.
People comes and go as characters appears and fades; and as time goes by: the story moves on.
At times, the author will starts to wonder where he or she sinks in and become a character; influence by the environment, move by the story-line, flowing along with time.

This note is just simply to remind you,
maybe that you forgot, or just can't see...

...The Pen is still in your hand..."

It's okay to fell down, for once you fell; you will learn to get back up much like a baby trying to walk...
It's okay to lose, for every time you lose. You know that you lose and what you did wrong...

It's okay... Rest and then Live...

Forgive yourself, have courage...
I don't have any mantras, or magic.
For the miracle that would be happening in your life is your own doing.
The only faith you need is the faith in yourself, As your boy would place his faith in you.

Take Care...
From the love of another human being...

[Animator]

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That was utterly beautifull ...